just some thoughts.
it was cold today... and i spent the entire day cleaning our house. i mean all day. laundry is done and closets are organized. our two spare rooms have HUGE closets. i was in the guest room (which will one day be turned into a nursery) and it kind of hit me that someday there could be a baby in that room. i'm kind of putting off decorating it... so it's still the same color as when we bought it and it just has the basics. sometimes i get so excited at the thought of having a little baby hanging around. this house almost seems too big for the three of us (millie included in that). then, sometimes the idea almost scares me. what if we can't afford a baby? what if we don't know what we're doing? i'm still learning so much about being a wife and michael is sitting in front of the tv playing a video game (he just got the new call of duty so i get to listen to things blowing up). are we grown up enough for a baby? i guess these are pretty normal feelings, right? i'm not going to lie...at "that time of month" i feel relieved and disappointed at the same time. i know God has a wonderful plan for us... whether it's getting pregnant soon, waiting a year or two, or not allowing us to get pregnant... in which case we would gladly adopt. moms/pregnant ladies how did you know it was the right time for you to have a baby? did it happen by surprise?